Seismic Waves

‎"There’s a crack (or cracks) in everyone…that’s how the light of God gets in." E. Gilbert

I think I’ve experienced so many earthquakes that the brightness of God’s light has sometimes blinded people, causing them to make U-turns.  I often wonder what my life would have been like without the cracks that were caused by having been in an earthquake zone.  Where would I be?  What if I hadn't been at the epicenter when it hit?  Would I be living a different life or in another country? I know the day will soon arrive when I will no longer question this and relish in the present moment at all times. Many decisions I made prior to taking a stand for truth had always been based on fear...wanting to please those around me and striving for unattainable perfection.  I wanted to be loved with cracks.  I am now realizing I need to accept all my imperfections and rebuild what I can. 
I wish this infrastructure had been reinforced to withstand some of the strongest seismic waves that affected its foundation, causing some of the most important people in my life to get hurt as they simply tried to help remove the concrete that had me buried.  I’ve tried rebuilding and have often become frustrated not knowing how to create a dwelling out of rubble.  I now have the necessary tools and materials.  I've learned from great architects who have shared their expertise in building structures, retrofitted to withstand the strongest earthquakes...never becoming a seismic risk again.  I now have to endure one of my own greatest struggles: patience.  

Rome wasn’t built in a day, but even now in ruins, some are able to see and appreciate its beauty...its history told through the remnants that remain.  Wonderful works of art indeed!

January 2011